Alessia conquers Negative Body Image and boosts Self Esteem
From when I was young, I always had the idea that I was just the “big girl” and that is who I would ever be. It was almost as if it was a character I played. I don’t really remember a time when I wasn’t heavier set.
My life was very hectic and stressful. Through high school and university, I worked 3 jobs, was a full-time student doing two degrees and volunteering. The last thing on my mind was going to the gym. So carrying on with the “big girl” persona seemed like the easiest way to go. I played the character so nobody could use my weight to hurt me, and thought that this was it for me.
There were many times that I tried to lose weight, but I always failed. I would get frustrated and revert back to the “oh, well that’s just me.” About two years ago, I hit a point where I realized the only thing stopping me from looking how I wanted to look was me. I had gone out shopping for a New Years dress, and NOTHING looked the way I wanted, or it didn’t come in my size. It was embarrassing and a real eye-opener. I was done and had hit rock bottom. Done with struggling. Done with excuses. I wanted to change for me and no one else. No more “ah it’s Thursday, I’ll start fresh Monday.” I just wanted to look and feel better.
I started working out at another gym and was doing well. But the environment was not very friendly, and it got in the way of my workouts. I had no desire to go there anymore, and it was really frustrating. My dad came to BBD and recommended I join. Since I have started working out there, my entire gym dynamic has changed. The environment is so friendly and supportive.
I look forward to my workouts every single day. I have never formally worked with a trainer, but have gotten to know some of them, and they have really made me feel like I am part of the gym. I am not intimidated by people and feel amazing working out here.
I was at my heaviest at 236lbs. I have now lost 70lbs, and I have never felt better in my life.
I am more confident and have been able to go back to playing sports. I have more energy and just genuinely enjoy working out now. This journey has changed my life. Losing weight was a feat in itself, but my lifestyle now is entirely different. I had some medical issues in the past, and they were awful. I am so much healthier now, those will remain things of the past. From here, I would like to lose about another twenty pounds. I want to keep working out and getting healthier. For the first time, I put myself and my health first, and I have never felt better.
If I could give anyone any advice, it would be to do it for you and do it your way. Once you see that the journey you are going to start is for you and nobody else, you can make it work. If that means doing it alone, or with a trainer, or with a boot camp, find the way that suits you.
You can’t be too hard on yourself, one mistake meal or missed workout doesn’t mean it’s over.
It takes time to get into a rhythm that works for you so just go for it. Small goals help the bigger ones more reachable. At first, I lost five, then ten, then fifteen. Before I knew it, I was twenty pounds down and going strong. I have a drive now I never had before, and I feel amazing!